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Old Sep 24, 2014, 03:38 AM
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I have been getting what i call "The rage" or the "Red Zone" for many years & have only just started to understand it slowly now myself...

I find that if i have too much to deal with, not thinking that i can handle it all & that its too much for me at once, tends to stress me out quite alot! I can get agitated over the littlest or the biggest things at any moment & then the switch starts flipping! If i feel like its a personal attack on my character, or im being judged by someone that has no clue, i will fly right off the handle with no control & feeling like i'll black out! My hands will start shaking & i feel like my body temperature starts to boil over, like my blood is boiling! I try to walk away from it as much as i can so i can avoid leaving any damages to anyone else or myself! I usually take my rage out by punching walls, the shower, punching door frames, throwing things, or self harm...if its at a person i will fire right up & get in their face if they get in mine or just scream right back & them & usually violently threaten them...afterwards i usually am in shock from what ive said or done! I do tend to get a state of mass euphoria from it & the good old adrenaline kicks in, or it goes the other way & i become very down & low & feel like i cant pick myself back up afterwards, it depends on the situation i guess & how you feel at the time! But i would be very agitated in your situation with things like that! This person has no right to have any kind of judgement or think they are superior to tell you how to deal with things, what your problems are or how to raise your own daughter!