I'm so sorry about your gf reaction to this entire situation. I was in a near similar situation to yours and almost booked into a psych ward. Do you have friends or family or a therapist to vent and release everything. Even writing down how you're feeling and throwing it away may help. I'm Confident for you that this will pass when the meds start kicking in. It's just so crap when you're in the midst of a Crisis. This phase will pass for both of us but we just don't know when. I find focusing on just ONE day at a time helps. Making it through each day is one day forward to recovery. I know I'm probably sounding positive right now but I have to keep reminding myself like a mantra that this will get bettering. It's the self talk in my head but every now and again I start thinking negative thoughts and have to remind myself this will pass. It's rea hard.