Thank you for all the responses. I've been so disconnected that I've had a hard time doing much of anything lately.

I am looking for new pDoc. I also finally got in to see an internist to have everything checked out. He's suppose to be talking with my pDoc about the appointment and all the test he ran. They are checking for Lupus. I hope that's not the case but I have an apt with my pDoc that she scheduled so we will see.

She had increased the benzo because I had requested it. I do still have a lot of anxiety and it has been the only thing that's kept me calm and it's helping me sleep better. I rarely take it during the day and if I have to it's usually only 1/2 to calm me down.

The feelings still haven't returned. Nothing has really. I'm hoping this will change. I really, really do.

It's hard to get in with a pDoc in my area that's excepting new patients. I've called around continuously the past week or so and most don't have appointments available until months out. I know it's a start but I also know I need help sooner than later before it starts getting worse.