Hi Lonestar,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!

AND welcome to PC!!!!!

I'm really sorry things have been so tough for you, but I hope you can find some of the support you need here. There are plenty of really understanding and supportive people around here so please feel free to have a look around and post whenever you're ready/whenever you want to.
And I'm sure a lot of us understand the "life's what you make of it" saying can be way easier said than done, and especially with depression on top of things. So let's start more at the beginning with a little support, hey??

Alison