Is that even a thing? I can't stop rocking back and forth, I'm shaky and lightheaded, I can't eat, I'm panicky, my best friend just tried to kill herself and I'm convinced that it's my fault because I have this stupid panther in my head that kills things and it tried to kill her or maybe I am just a terrible friend and it's all my fault and I'm trying to pass off the blame on being crazy. I didn't go to school today, but I think I might go for my last class because I can't afford to miss it. My mind is going 568720 km a minute so I don't even know if I could understand anything my teacher says. Yesterday I believed in God and I went to church and it had to be a Catholic church but I just sat outside and talked to myself. I am going crazy. What do I do? I can't miss school because it will ruin my life.