Ohhhhhh Yaaaaaaa.... I knew there were people hiding that were not admitting to it... yes a fantasy.

Once he complained about something in his neck and shoulders and I joked that I give a pretty good shoulder rub... He said if it was not such a blatant crossing of boundaries I might take you up on it.

When my first pdoc died I was grief stricken that he said ...f.... him. Well what an opportunity. I had the fantasy night or several in my efforts to say good bye or assuage my sadness. It was powerful to me. Now that was love....

This would be lust... I suppose that would find me a way to his heart in my hopes to finally connect in a different way. I do think he could be fun tho....lol

And though I shared some of my experiences of my fantasies with number 1 I doubt I would ever talk about these thoughts...lol... Might feed his ego more than need be....