That everyone is against you, hates you, that Karma or God or the Universe or whatever kicks you when you are down, wants you to suffer, wants you miserable.

Then what?

I'm gonna ask the same question here I asked in the Other Mental Health forum, just a little more broadly.

How do you go on? How do you face life knowing that you are so unhappy? Especially if it doesn't seem fair? If you feel you didn't do anything to deserve it?

If it hurts so bad that a day doesn't go by when you don't think about suicide. It is both pragmatic, I worry about stigma, discrimination, and personal, I feel such a deep sense of shame. Some of it is real, some of it I know is amplified a million fold in my doomsday mind, where I always go to the worst case scenario.

I just need to know how you go on, how you feel good about yourself, when society tells you that you are now scary, different, whatever. Fact is, people DO look down on mental illness in a way they don't on physical illness.

How????????????