I can relate to a certain degree...

I couldn't stand my highs and lows being muted while I was medicated, I never managed to be okay with living a watered down version of my life.

However, I don't mind the middle at all, I cherish it, I just can't stand my highs or lows being less than.

For me it isn't about being a drama addict or craving the attention, for me its about feeling foreign in my own skin, not recognizing the woman in the mirror.

Idk, I just didn't feel like myself with a smaller emotional range, guess I was simply unable to acclimatize, as my bipolarity has been an integral part of my life or as long as I can remember.

Maybe it's not the drama exactly that you're after, maybe it's the excitement that's alluring.