I feel so bad. I thought I was doing better. For the first time in a long time I was optimistic, now I am so down. I can't shake it. Ive been like this for days! I worried my partner is taking it as I don't want to marry on Saturday. Honestly the only par about the wedding that sux ither than the whole money thing is that my only reason for living for the first 22yrs of my life will not be there. My twin died 6yrs ago and it's been a harsh roller coaster since.

I have a crappy past but so do the majority of ppl here. Pdoc doubled my dose of lexapro a few weeks ago and I thought I was doing better but ive hit a wall. I don't know what to tell T or Pdoc the next time I see them. And I'm absolutely horrible at calling doc and especially Pdoc of symptoms for anything gets worse. I think Pdoc said after se upped dose that if I felt SUI to call.