Wow. Your post looks like I wrote it. I'm going through exactly the same thing. On Saturday night, a guy who works with university students with ADD told me I should talk to my doc about ADD. He thinks that's what's going on with me. I'm being treated for depression and anxiety right now (taking Lexapro and Clonazepam), but I'm more disorganized and messy and forgetful than ever. My medication is stopping me from having panic attacks, but I feel useless. I have trouble concentrating at work... and I have a very demanding job. I'm always afraid that I'm forgetting something important. I have to write so many lists and set reminders on my computer so I don't forget deadlines and appointments. I can't tune out background noise and I lose focus so easily. Once I get distracted, I can't get my focus back. My mind is racing all the time and I can't think clearly or prioritize my tasks.

Friends and colleagues tease me about having "blonde moments" because I'm so spacey and absent-minded sometimes... and I'm not a real blonde. ;-) I have shown up at work with my dress inside-out numerous times. I've worn my underwear sideways too. A couple of weeks ago, I went outside to wait for my cab and stood there for 20 minutes before I realized I hadn't called one. I haven't bought groceries or cooked anything for myself in months.

I do things like forgetting when payday is and paying all my bills at once and not leaving myself enough to live on until the next pay day. Other times, I let bills go for months even though I have money to pay them. My phone and power have nearly been shut off a couple of times... and it's not because I can't afford to pay my bills. I make a decent salary. I just forget to pay my bills... or constantly tell myself I'll do it TOMORROW... and tomorrow takes a long time to get here sometimes.

My flat is a disaster. I feel like I'm a fraud at work. I look so well put-together and professional, but my home life is such a mess. All I do is procrastinate when I get home. I can't make myself do housework. My voicemail is full, but I can't make myself sit down and listen to the messages. I have piles of unopened mail. Today was the deadline for filing taxes, so I'm going to be filing late... again. I can't read a book anymore. I can't watch a tv show without doing something else at the same time. I just feel tired and brain-foggy all the time. I have actually started buying new underwear instead of doing laundry. That's how useless I am at home. I'm always running around like a chicken with my head cut off trying to get to work on time in the morning... I always oversleep and then I frantically try to get ready and then waste time looking for my misplaced keys or my sunglasses.

I'm going to talk to my doc about this. My friend thinks I need to be on a stimulant rather than an SSRI and a benzo. I hope you go talk to a doctor too. Living like this is frustrating... knowing that we're not living up to our full potential and feeling like we can't do things that other people find simple just leads to feelings of failure and depression and more anxiety. I procrastinate about everything. Right now I'm procrastinating about going to bed... like I do every night... and then I'll be exhausted in the morning and I'll oversleep, etc. Ugh.

Sorry for the rant. I just know what you're going through. You're not alone in this. I hope we both get the help we need. Cheers.