There's a med for that. Don't give up just because you're having trouble finding the right one.
Maybe medical leave would help you a lot. Being under a lot of stress can't be helping.

Pull yourself out if it? Hmmmm....if there's a way to pull yourself out of bipolar 1, do share, because it will save all of us a lot of money and time that we are currently using on pdocs, therapists, and meds.

That sounded sarcastic. Sorry. But people never tell diabetics or others like that to "pull themselves out it", yet they so willingly say it to us. It gets aggravating.

Really, all I wanted to say was don't give up.