Well, I am not going to lie, I do know what you are saying Mowtown. I can't really say that I am in a place right now where I finally feel a "radical acceptance". I think a lot of that has to do with still being stuck in my lawsuit and the horrible journey I have had with that entire experience. I have not even spoken to my lawyer in a while either, I find that just thinking about talking to "any" lawyer now is so psychologically souring and at the same time painful too.

I did not have a very good day today myself. I have to find a way to get hay for the winter and I am not having much luck with that at the moment. I hate this challenge, IMHO, its one of the biggest challenges of having ponies and horses. I do not really "know" what I want at all right now either. I just take things one day at a time.