I did not find DBT helpful when I did it last summer. It just seemed to exacerbate things, though I was not on the right meds at the time either.

Yes, trippin, that is what my husband meant. Not pull myself out of it per se but fight back. I did not do that today. I laid in bed from 9:30 to 3:30. Not sure if it was what I needed or not. I don't feel much better. The problem is I'm so tired I just don't want to fight it. Didn't you get tired of your every day life being a battle?

I know that's just me feeling sorry for myself. I have to do better than what I've been doing. I can't suffer like this anymore. Fighting is what I must do. I did take my son to the park when I picked him up from preschool. It was only for a half hour but I made sure I did it. I thought I can at least go to the park. I can at least do that.

And I did it.

Thanks for all your words of encouragement everyone. I need them. I feel so hopeless right now. I need to know all is not lost. I need to gather up the energy to fight.