Actually, in another post, some posters (plus reflecting on what my T has said to me), I'm pretty sure she will NOT say "I love you". And thanks to the other posters, I've realized I'm okay with that. But I'm still going to ask.

What I meant by my post here is that if someone doesn't care about me, if they don't see me as a unique individual, then I don't want that person in my life. My T cares about me. I'm 100% certain of that, no doubt in my mind. She has said it, showed it, proved it. I'm not ending the relationship with her...no matter how she responds.

For me, asking my T if she loves me, is more about understanding love than it is about her. Like, do I actually love my fiance who is abusive to me? Do I actually love my T? Do I love my mother who neglected me? What type of love is friendship love? Is what my T shows me, is that love?

I hope that clarifies it some

But I do believe, if people want to know if their T or Pdoc cares about them, they should ask. In such type of relationships, if it matters to you, then the professional should care about you, as an individual and not as simple another client, a paycheck, solely because you're their "job". I would never stand for that.