I am kinda struggling. I am currently being treated with Topamax, Lexapro, trazadone, and Abilify. I am not so much struggling with being bipolar but with what parts are me? Really me? I like what I guess are the hypomanic parts, they get and keep me employed. Really hate the black hole parts, want nothing of them. My mom says "don't act like yourself" WTF!? THAT does NOT help! I know she means don't lose my temper and shoot off my mouth but that was NOT the phrase to use when I am not sure who myself is! Lots of bad politics at work (long story) and trying to get stablized at the same time I have a lot of anxiety. I have been reading, learning a lot.