Well, right there I congratulate you. That's your first step. Now you really need to tell your T. Don't hesitate. I've had to tell mine before. I made a pact with myself, because I have tried twice. That I will tell someone I am feeling that bad. Even if you don't know how to bring it up, then just throw it out there.

Because those suicidal thoughts will keep festering, even though you don't know where they're coming from. And you want to be safe. :Much love: