Wachiki92, I'm soo sorry that you've had so much loss. Can you look into something like Catholic charities-for a therapist, it does not matter whether you practice any religion at all-they offer counseling-usually with sliding scale/discount.can you look here on pc, I think on home page ,can list of national mental health orgs-can prob also help you find discounted t or pdoc. Just a suggestion. Hang in there, can you/have you tried any aa groups to help with the drinking.also here on pc I believe there is aa forum/group.again...just some ideas...
Please don't give up, there are people here to listen...when you need a shoulder.