Skeezyks, I guess I am a hypocrite, I hate seeing people write bad things about themselves. I know we all here do it. I must think I am somehow different, because I do not like to see others go there, because I know it isn't true, but I go there myself. I have read so many of your posts, I know you have pain because of your situation but I see a great person in you. You are so kind and supportive to so many here.