My dear friends I thank you a lot for your replies hugs** to you all there.

Well my story (in short way). I had panic attacks and took AD (Paroxat) and felt super super goor, TOO good and manic yes. I felt I have the world under my feet (I hope I expressed myself correctly, since my english isn't so good). Then I stopped taking Ad for my panic attack and felt worse, started to swing from sadness to being happy, but mostly i was sad sad sad and felt anxiety. I cried a lot.

Then my pdoc said you have cyclothimia. And gave me Lamictal. I felt better but flat and still swinging. Then she gave me Abilify to boost my Lamictal dose (100 mg Lamictal and 5mg of Abilify).

I am on that meds for 3 motnhs now. My substitute pdoc said that at this stage of treatment WE WAIT and see how this meds work. It's not good to change or upper or lower our meds right away.

But I am noticing lack of interest in things, I am not depressed like, but like BLAH I DON'T GIVE A DAMN like (if you know what I mean). I'm not interested in travelling yet I'm unhappy and insecure about my life.

For sure I have cyclothimia my friends, cus I had the swings before. Now the swings from depression to hypomania are gone, but I SWING just in a bad mood, accompanied with anxiety and A HUGE LACK OF SELF CONFIDENCE.

I hope you understand my case now. I thank you once again you're the best