It takes forever to find the right cocktail. Took me 9 years. I think we finally have it. I put on weight, lost weight, put on weight, lost weight. Moods up and down, round and round....Manic depressed. Its so crazy. So frustrating.

My pdoc changed this summer, I had no control over it. It was the best thing that happened. She started me in therapy on top of medication. I decided to take hold and take control so I exercise on a regular bases. I quite a job that gave me anxiety ( I was blessed to be able to do so). I changed surround friendship. I went to my regular doctor for a check up and got put on estrogen (a positive thing). I started to journal. I set goals and stuff to look forward to. I just took hold of it. No more bipolar controlling me, I control it.

I guess what Im saying is dont give up. Read up on medication. Read the side effects and see if it might be for you. Work out at a gym or take up walking around your neighborhood. (if you have a dog, take her. She would love it)

I hope I helped giving you food for thought.