Thank you for your good wishes, it means so much.
I haven't done anything dishonest. I haven't done anything except my job which makes it so hard. The director explained it was not me personally, they needed a person with different expertise. It was a newly created role and it hasn't worked. But I still feel terrible as I wasn't given any indication that anything was wrong. In fact I received a glowing three month review/end of trial review.

I have been given a months notice but we both felt it best if I went immediately. I just grabbed my personal things from my desk and left. I didn't say goodbye to anyone.

I am in pieces. I saw T yesterday and cried throughout the session. That's a first! I just couldn't hold it in any longer. She was very kind and supportive and said I could text her during the week if I need to. She asked me if I was thinking about hurting myself and urged me not to as she said my boys need a mother. I wouldn't but I can't stop thinking about it and I can't stop crying which is something i never do.

I feel such a failure. I was made redundant in March (from a career I had been in for 12 years) then went on to this job. I can't face applying for a jobs and putting myself out there. I have just lost any little confidence I had. My H says I must get a job - immediately - but I can't face it.

Thank you all for your support. This on top of the five deaths in my family last year feels like the final straw. I don't know what to do.

Thank you for being here for me. Xx