i have dr appt on monday. she said some really hurtful things to me and i hate her for saying that. Since then everyday , every minute is a living hell. i haven't hurt so much in the long time. I cry several time a day whenever i hear sad music or think about it. my family doesn't understand me too.

i wish i could just end myself. Overdose can't kill me. Going to A&E is going back to see the same doctor in the psych ward. I hate her. I don't know what to do anymore, except pretending it's all fine to outside. I am 23 yr old, a uni student who doesn't go to class coz i am bloodly depressed and am not motivated. My doctor gave me anti-anxiety med coz I can't handle anti-depressant which makes me high immediately. Then she questioned me about why i don't go to class or why I am not motivated.

It hurts alot. I can't bear it anymore. I can't pretend it's ok anymore.