That's why I put myself in intensive outpatient for 1 1/2 months this last time. I've been out for a month. It kept me hanging on. It didn't take it completely away. But I was so overwhelmed. I didn't know what else to do. Inpatient doesn't really have an effect on me. They keep you for a few days adjust meds then set you back out like everything is better. But for some those few days help.

But yeah, it's hard as hell. It's when you are overwhelmed that it really catches you. I know it's hard but you have to tell someone if it gets to that point. I made a pact to myself to. And I would rather not be alive, but someone or something has kept me here after two tries.