I've been worse, but I could also be a whole lot better. Depression is getting me pretty down. So is my self-esteem (or lack thereof). I really wanna walk to the library, there's a couple books I really wanna check out, and also I have some fines I need to pay. Plus I wanna go see the park next to the library, as I haven't been there all year and would like to see the flowers before it gets too cold and they die. But lately I just...I don't know. I feel too ugly to show myself in public. I am fat and unattractive and I feel like it would be cruel to ruin other peoples' good day to make them have to share space with me. Even though the library's big. Also depression is draining my motivation to do anything...