Hi OP. It's nice to meet you.I'm sorry you are going through all this. I hope you are not serious about the rope. Things will get better with time. PC is here for you. If you really feel bad the call the sui**de hot line. Don't pretend everything is ok. Get the help you need.

A couple of years ago I had a good relationship with my T, but he retired and I couldn't
see him any more. The clinic suggested another T. That didn't turn out so well. He said "so what can I help you with?" I was so pissed I walked out. He had my file. Doesn't he know what is going on with me. Oh well. I will keep searching for the right Therapist.

I hope you start feeling better soon. PM me if you like. I will do my best to be a shoulder to lean on, an ear to listen, ect....

Sincerely,

Piraeus