Hi All,

I am a 33 yr old female with severe ADHD and history of major depression and anxiety disorder which went away for a few years.

I have awful problems due to personal painful story which caused me a lot of pain and suffering and also terrible employment problems (I am a manager in the IT field).

After several years i finally decided and got the chance to relocate to Germany for good.

It has always been a dream and I know the country since 2001 and spent my every free day in it BUT, my move is due on 30.09 , my flight is at 6 am and i am becoming hysterical about everything I do while preparing to move.

I have mood swings, insomnia and even panic attacks.

I have a loving and amazing partner with whom I have an amazing relationship (He is ADD diagnosed btw) but I still freak out and fear and behave abnormally as if i am bipolar....I drive him crazy, say negative things, become aggressive and isolate....I even had a thought of canceling the whole thing which is insane because after a proper sleep i knew it was not what I wanted.

Can anyone share similar stories?

Am i going crazy?

Thanks in advance!