Hi StillIRise, welcome to PC and the PTSD forum. Well, you did good there, just posted how you feel right now, good for you.

A breakdown can happen with anyone. A person can push and push for a long time and build up a great deal of stress to where they can just get to a point where they tire themselves out both emotionally and physically.

It is actually "normal" that in rebuilding one's self after a break down, a person doesn't want to feel like they "have" to do anything. A lot of people "change" things about what they have been doing and just do things that are very "different" too. We are actually designed to be that way, it is how we thrived because we were constantly moving around and changing things and learning as we did so. Every generation is a bit different than the one before too.

Today, the important thing for you is you just posted who you are and what you are doing and feeling right now, that is "doing" something different and is "your choice".
That is a good start!

((Hugs))
OE