Hi Zinco. I am sorry that you had to be put on klonopin. I also was progressed to klonopin from ativan and other benzos that were not as effective for me. Now I get why it seemed to work so well. Not sure their are words to describe that medicine that are printable. To me the stuff is evil to put it simply.

The main thing I wanted to say to you is that the anxiety I felt prior to going on benzos was very strong and I also had suicidal thoughts. However it does not hold a candle to the terror I have had during withdrawal. Night terrors and waking up in a terrible state. The first few months I would wake up every hour or 2 in an awful state of anxiety or terror. Now that has pretty much stopped, but I do wake up with weird tremors inside my head that soon pass. I still CANNOT sleep a whole night through, maybe can get to sleep at 3 am or 2 am if I am lucky, then wake up no less than 3 times before I finally get up. I cannot change this no matter what I try. I have laid in bed for hours on end, wide awake. I used to cry when this happened so much. I am amazed that I am not ill due to the insomnia or lack of sleep for 19 months now. I would never have thought anyone could make it on so little.

I am assured from other survivors that this will eventually all pass. The brain is healing, very slowly it seems. I try hard to have a positive outlook towards the whole thing. Just as in everything else in life, I have good days and bad days.