Hello everyone! My name is Kelly. I was diagnosed with Depression, Anxiety and Bipolar. I never ended up taking my scripts for bipolar because (as stupid as it sounds) if I didn't take the medication (to me) it meant I don't have bipolar. I have tried antidepressants before. I've been on Celexa, Paxil, Klonopin (made me 10x worse), I have been on Seroquel for a short amount of time back in the day, I know there's been more but I can't think of all of them. About 4 months ago I went to a really good psychiatrist. He diagnosed me Bipolar. Prescribed me meds. I never got them. It's stupid. I know. I am engaged. We have been fighting a lot lately. I went to beauty school, graduated, never ended up doing anything with it because I'm scared of dealing with people. I'm so lost. I keep pushing friends and family members away. I literally have no friends. I don't know what to do with myself anymore. I know first step is getting to the doctors. Taking my prescribed meds. I know that. It's just...I don't want to deal with this ongoing battle for the rest of my life. I'm so tired. I wish I was normal. I'm having financial problems too. I want to visit a psychiatrist, but I really don't have the money...ughhh shoot me now please.