So I ended up gathering enough motivation to get dressed and walk to the library after all. Now I'm glad I did, because it was easily the highlight of my day. I picked out clothes that weren't too baggy and actually looked kind of good on me, despite the fact that I'm 300 pounds and practically nothing ever looks good on me. Then I did my hair, brushed my teeth, you know, the basics. I actually dug out some mascara and concealer from my mom's makeup bag, used a bit of those. Probably will be as daring as I'll ever get with makeup (I am not a girly-girl). Put in some earrings, good thing I did because the holes in my lobes were almost shut, I had to force them through. Sprayed myself with some good perfume, grabbed a stick of gum to chew just for something a little extra, and used lip balm. Anyway, when I was done I felt I looked alright. Good enough to go out in public. Unfortunately, walking in direct sunlight when it's 76 degrees will make a fat person sweat after a bit. By the time I got to the library I felt like I looked awful. My hair had dried in the sun and was frizzy, I didn't even think to bring a mirror so I couldn't even check my makeup. Wasn't quite as confident when I got there, needless to say. However, I did get the books I wanted, plus it turned out I didn't owe a fine after all (my dad apparently paid it a while ago). So even though I felt completely disgusting in public surrounded by other people, I did get something good out of it. Plus, I really needed to get out of the house anyway. Unfortunately I didn't go to the park afterward as I had hoped I would because by then my feet were hurting, and also I was feeling too self-conscious and wanted to go home.