Hi, it's me. No change. Except he did put on his wedding ring yesterday. I think because WE are going to counseling together for the first time tonight. When he put it on he said, "Now where's all the love you need to show me that I put it on."

Anyway, I think I will clam up and shut down and not talk. My GUT feeling is that he wants to go to counseling to "prove" to the world and his family that he did "his part" and that counseling didn't work. I think it's his way of trying to justify.....

I can't say what is on my mind about the pictures. So I have no idea what I'm going to talk about tonight. I have no clue. I don't even know how I'm "faking" it.

I am still sad....but plugging on. We don't mention love to each other at all. I will write to you all tomorrow to let you know how my "initial" went.

Hey, one of my counseling appointments from last week (I interviewed 3 to see which one I connected with), said that since my husband denies everything, I should get a private investigator to know FOR SURE. Gosh, I wish I could afford it.....but my "woman's intuition" and "gut" are telling me I'm right.

Love you all...and Direction, why did you change your mind on advice you gave me?