I posted here before about my husband (bi-polar) constantly accusing me of cheating and lying, but had to delete the thread.

A few months ago, I found out HE is the one who has been cheating. It has mostly been online stuff (flirting, e-sex, love declarations) but there has been physical stuff too- some paid for.

I decided to stay and work through it. A month after I found out he was still chatting online. He promised to stop. Today, I found emails from a girl he has been chatting to for years. He claims she's obsessed with him and his sadistic side gets a kick out of chatting to her. I told him I don't care, he promised to stop.

We've been married 6 months- our honeymoon is in a week. He has asked that we go away, spend time just us and come back and seek help. I have agreed.

I have told him I need to take my rings off, as I don't feel married. He has two kids (shared custody) who are with us until Sunday, so I won't remove the rings until then. He is freaking out- this is the only time I have ever felt like removing the rings.

Other than this 'recent' girl, he has been open and honest about everything- removing passwords, giving me access to everything (incl bank accounts) and answering questions no matter how odd or unrelated they seem.

I was starting to deal with it, in my head (always intended to see a professional regardless) but now I have been knocked back to step 1.

I can act like everything is normal for the kids and his family (party on Sunday) but when it's just us, I know I'll struggle. He's at work until about 6pm. I don't know if I can look at him.

Thanks for reading. I think, mostly, I just needed to get it out. My family live overseas (apart from one relative here) and I don't have any friends (that are not also friends with my relative here).