I also know how you feel- the frustration, the sensation of feeling sub-human because of the decisions made by others.

I can never seem to "close" job interviews well either - they seem to be going great, and then wham!!!, rejection blow-off letter arrives.

That means it is THEIR loss, not yours. You will find another job, it will simply take longer. This happens to me, but the process of getting there messes up my thinking so badly that my depression/anxiety kick in.

I go to the Salvation Army for food too.......plus a number of local pantries if I can. It's not easy in this day and age to survive, so even though I feel horrible for going there, I'm glad I can.

Try not to cut - easier said than done. I myself am waging a battle with the knife as well. I'm winning this hour, and that's all I'm taking it - an hour at a time. I can't commit to a full day yet, but each hour adds into days.

Please take care of yourself.


Courage is fear that has said its prayers.
Dorothy Bernard