So far I have had an average week. Tuesday was terrible because every one of my five bosses snapped at me for something. I worked myself into exhaustion and went home with a migraine and arthritis hurting. I sat on the sofa and cried myself to sleep. The rest of the week has not been nearly as bad. I still work in a hostile environment. I still have a workload that is impossible to keep up with. For the most part I am getting where I just don't care. I am slipping into the "don't give a darn" mode.

My neurologist prescribed a new medication for my migraines, amitriptyline, which also happens to be an anti-depressant. So now I am on 2 antidepressants, Wellbutrin and amitriptyline. The amitriptyline makes me a little sleepy but I don't mind that too much. It seems to be calming my nerves some. It also seems to work much better at preventing migraines than the Topamax I was on. I am glad to get off the Topamax because it had terrible side effects.

I was a little down in the dumps because I have applied for several jobs and all I have gotten back is 3 rejection notices. I do not want to work in this current job indefinitely. I could say the problem is me, but everyone else in our office is also looking for another job because they are not happy. I just ask God that if it is His will for me to stay in the workplace where I am to at least make it tolerable. I can even think of ways to solve problems in the office but nobody wants to hear my thoughts. The way they operate is to attack and blame.