So, we've decided to back off a bit and go back to just kissing/touching with clothes on in order to work on my anxieties with touch and work on our communication. I feel very guilty about doing this and feel like I need to get over the anxiety as quickly as possible because otherwise it's unfair to him. So I'm hoping I can get it done in a couple of weeks and that that is not too long for him.

But if it's unlikely for me to orgasm with someone else, then it's like I'm punishing him for nothing.

At the moment, I don't really get myself off anymore either. I really don't have much desire to, since even the thought of doing it makes me feel frustrated.