He now says his reason for leaving was because of his episodes from his bipolar disorder. He says I should've looked for him during the times he would disappear.

I'm the kind of person if someone lets me go I don't feel comfortable chasing them so I let them be. Although because I love him I always let him back in.

He says it's not the fact I was with someone else but the way I carried myself about it. He says I should have been more apologetic than careless. My reason for acting this way was because I honestly felt like I did nothing wrong.