Hi, perfectlyflawed! We care about you. I often wish I could see people here face to face, too. There are so many nice folks on this site.

I really wish you could get treatment for your alcoholism. I think it's making your bipolar worse instead of helping. Have you told your therapist about it? Please, please do, dear one. Have you posted in the addiction forum? I do know there are alcoholics here who have not drunk in years. Okay?