I have no one else to talk to this about because I never admit it to anyone except my doctor. There was an article on fb posted by a friend about a shirt that was sold saying that "It's not rape. It's a snuggle with a struggle." and I instantly bust into tears and now I'm super upset over it because in the comments, they were laughing. So I asked how that could even be remotely funny and my friend replied that she didn't want to explain dark humor to me. So I told her I knew what dark humor was and gave an example of dark humor vs rape jokes and she told me she was gang raped and found it funny, so she posted it. But it's such a horrible trigger for other people. Like me. Now all I can do is sit here and cry. Every day, I tell myself that I can'tt possibly take a tiny bit more and every day, something else adds onto that pile.