Here comes the weekend again. More alone time. People always think I'm a loner, but I'm only a loner cause I too am worthless. Why would people stick around and be there for me when I'm nothing at all? I want friends....but I don't deserve them. I'm this weird guy who doesn't even feel like a human being. Weirdo...that's my name.

When I was a teenager, I only had one person who really cared for me unconditionally and showed me kindness. Now she is dead, and I'm left at square one after all these years, no progress to be made. I can get degrees, certifications, accolades, promotions, all of those meaningless things, but all I want is someone like her. All I want is someone who loves me as much as I love them. Ha, as if that's gonna happen.