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I do understand how hard a decision this must be. I in no way want to say "I think you should do this" or "I think you should do that" but please consider the pros and cons of both going and staying. Aside from all the other emotional turmoil in your life recently I think it would be a very scary thing for anyone to be leaving home for an extended period of time. If you decide not to go, please make sure you are not making the decision because of "cold feet". Also consider the opportunities for the future that you may have by taking this trip.
This is a difficult decision. In the next 5 days try to find some quiet time where you can think about this. I think either way would be a good decision for different reasons. I also think you have a lot of self-knowledge and understanding about your emotions and your goals in life... goals meaning both what you want to achieve and what kind of person you want to be. You are flooded with emotions now. I hope that you can make the decision that is right for you... moreover, whatever decision you make, I believe you have the power to make that decision work for its best. "The world is what we make of it."
Also remember that you are not making a decision that is set in stone for the rest of your life. If you decide to make a go of Florida, you may find that once you are there things are much clearer and that you are supposed to be there. If not there are no police that are going to say "you aren't allowed to return home until your 4 months are up."
I had an extremely difficult decision to make once in life and it was really weighing me down. On the last day I had to make my choice, I still didn't know what decision to make. At that point a counselor said to me "it is not like you can't change your mind later" and for me that thought lifted a tremendous weight off my shoulders and I was then able to make my decision easily, almost instantly in fact.
I want to emphasize thought that it is not like this is a game show where there is a right decision and a wrong decision. You are choosing between two paths and either path will lead to a future that you have the power to make your own. In the end both paths may lead to the same place, they may lead to different places, but each of those places will be full of opportunities. Life is a journey. Whatever you decide, enjoy the journey and what life has to offer along the way.
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