1. My favorit color is purple. Pink is next up.
2 Favorite food is lamb.
3. I smoked from ages 13-33
4. lost my virginity at age 13 from the neighbor
5. Got drunk for the first time at 13
6. My first suicidal thought was at age 4 1/2
7. I would lay for hours channeling negative bad things to happen to a specific person who made me feel bad at that time. It always worked too.
8. I was pretty sure I was an empath until....even up until a year ago. My therapist took away that super power.
9. I constantly daydream that I have amazing abilities, save the day or someone specific, and everyone wants me around. I escape constantly into fantasy world.
10. I wanted to be a veterinarian as a child.
11. I always wish I was a shape shifter. Who needs the powers of flight or invisibility if you can morph into any animal or creature at will.
12. I love the smell of fresh cut grass.
13. I hug trees
14. I want the apocolypse to happen now.
15. I feel I am always one step away from snapping, going postal and losing my freaking mind.
16. When I saw my first black person I was mad because I always had to bath and they didn't. I thought they were dirty!
17. Clutter triggers me into a flashback. I go into a rage.
18. I do not believe I will ever make anything out of my life and I will kill myself in a bad moment.
19. I love sci-fi movies and hate watching sappy chick flicks or comedies.
20. I pretend to like what others like to fit in the group or to gain the trust from someone.
21. I do not feel love and can not feel love back.
22. I always climbed trees as a kid. I was a tom boy.
23. Impossible for me to put on a poker face. If I hate you, think you are an idiot, pissed at you, hopeless or depressed it is all over my face. I always always would get in trouble at all jobs because of it. The next person who tells me to smile will lose teeth.
24. I never will go back out and get a 9-5 style job. I just can't go back to that drudge. I rather be homeless on the streets.
25. I worry about how I am going to look dead and what the person doing the autopsy is judging my body.
26. Sever acne started at age 12 and finally after I started a birth control at age 33 did it go away. My sister called me pizza face, I could never look at people, walked with my head down, became agoraphobic because I did not want anyone to see me. My mother said it was because I was dirty. It destroyed what little self esteem I ever had.
27. We had siamese fighting fish in fish bowls. I would climb on a stool, reach in and squeeze them to death. Do not know why.
28. I hate playing video games so I don't.
29. Sunflowers are my favorite flower
30. I wish I was never born.