Hello optimistic_dolphin: Not every person gets along with every doctor or every therapist. From what you wrote, it sounds as though the doctor you're seeing presently has, perhaps, been overly aggressive with you. So I wonder about the possibility of your changing doctors. I know I have had this happen to me. I recall seeing one therapist who treated me like I was some kind of sexual predator because I told him I struggled with Gender Identity Disorder. I never went back to see him again.

When we go to see a doctor or a therapist, we're paying them & so, in a sense, we're their employers while we see them. We may not be able to make them do what we want. But we shouldn't have to put up with them mistreating us either.

Things are clearly not going well for you at the moment. But do try to keep in mind that, at 23 years of age, you have many years ahead of you. And things can & will get better. You just have to hang in there & find the right doctors & therapists... Please keep fighting...