Feeling rather bummed out. Was excited to give a really nice surprise which was met with indifference. (I struggle mightily almost all days getting up. Happened to wake up very early and was really excited to help BF, who's been really busy.) Shouldn't have bothered. All it accomplished was losing sleep (already very small amount), being useless and feeling bad.

I'd like to at least look forward to being at work, but I know what awaits there….

Damn. It all started out so good...