Started the day feeling horrible. Thought about talking to a nurse. But it's too late now, and a Friday. I spoke to my counsellor. I'm not sure if I can stay safe. Then again I felt borderline hypomanic for a bit. Who needs ER? I treated myself to a nice meal. While waiting for it, the depression hit again. Now I was on my way back to my room, thought I'll go to my room and maybe feel better, and the depression hit hard. Now I'm petting a cat and wondering, should I go? I feel so weak. I don't want to lose close to a year of no SI... but why not?