I have a test at 2:30pm, and yet I don't want to study. Partly due to what's up in my mind. Yesterday after a group, I left feeling worse. Today I just want help. My family doesn't know what's going on, and I just want to give up. I can't get a word in with my sister, and I don't really talk to my parents due to two dominate personalities. I just sit back and relax. But now when I feel like I need help, I don't want to be a burden for them. That's how my sister would view it. I should just call my T but I really don't want to. I have things to do but absolutely no will to do any of it. It's all distracting, when there are bad things on the mind. I just hope that this helps, venting. It has the past week.

I'm reminded of the bad guy slogan for "Wreak it Ralph" I am bad and that is good, I will never be good and that's not bad, there's no one I'd rather be than me

Only I would rather not have to deal with all this on the day of a test.