Thank you all for all your posts. You have helped me remember the basics. Also, to realize I do do daily things-trying diff things to sleep better, I do take my meds, don't exercise-so I need to mayb just start with walking, trying eat healthier, I go to work everyday.I am back into reading some self help books, I go to md, I go to therapy, praying, meditation.I think I keep focusing on huge goals and need to remember to celebrate the small steps before the big goals. Kudos to all of you for what you do.