Hi, its me again and I think I'm having another major depressive episode. This would be the second one this year alone. My mom is in the hospital and she almost died. Almost every year she has a near death experience and that was the second such one this year. Earlier she had severe bronchitis and it makes it worse for her because she has lung problems. This year started off crappy as well. All the cars broke down costing thousands of dollars. The dishwasher broke costing another $700. That ain't all people! I developed 8 different personalities most of them this year and a few last year. This is adding to my depression. Some of the personalities are embarrassing like the 5 year old kid one, the alien and bird. I freeze in one position constantly. Our family invests in Intel stock which 7 years ago was $140 a share and now its less than $22. That is all our financial situation is based on. I can't even cry if I wanted to. I have been trying but I just fail. That is what I am, a complete failure as a person. I don't have a job, or go to school because of my many conditions. To make things worse, I feel responsible for many world disasters including the tsunami, plane crashes, murders, earthquakes and more! I am also responsible for the high gas prices because I have dreams about it. The most recent one was gas hitting $4 a gallon. In my area there is a station charging $3.44 a gallon!! Because of my powers of causing everything the government is after me and put many devices in my room! Even though my room is my favorite place to be because of the computer and my model planes, I still don't feel completely safe in it because of the mind reading device. They know my every thought. They are also controlling the personalities! I lost interest in things that I used to love. I just don't feel like doing anything. There is nothing to be thankful for. So far this is the worst year in a long time for me and my family. I think we are going to lose everything we own because of the financial situation and live on the streets and die slowly and painfully. By the way my mom is in a lot of pain. I have nothing going for me. If you want to know I do take my pills and they were helping but now with all this crap going on they stopped working. I feel tired all day long and want to sleep. I just don't want to waste the entire day away though. So, what do I do? Do I go to the hospital? I haven't cut in a long time but with all this going on, I feel like self injuring again. Too much stress!!!!