Soccer Mom, I was hoping to just hand her the printed pages, because it all feels so vulnerable. Now it looks like I will have to figure out how to hand her my phone (or the laptop if I bring that with me)... :gulp: the level of fear that comes with the transference with her is insane. I know she's not actually scary, but I can't escape that emotion around her. :/ I would also react like you did to text addressed to me. I find it such an informal method of communication that any attempt at formalizing it would really throw me off. Did her telling you she was trying to personalize it help? I wasn't able to take it in when my t said that my formal name is on all the paperwork, so that is why she might slip and not use my nickname... because of how I feel about the use of my name, I've always made it a point to honor how my clients ask me to address them.

HazelGirl, It used to be that way with other t, I could just start talking and things would come out... but with this t, I'm paralyzed with fear. My mind completely goes blank, and I can't figure out what to say or how to say it. Even when I bring things in to give her, I get freaked out and can't hand it to her. I brush it off as stupid, and she doesn't push around it (though she will remind me she doesn't think anything I have told her is stupid)... She pushes on all the wrong things. I don't know how to tell her that I need her to help me to come out of my shell before she can push all the other stuff