Hi Celtic,

This!!!: "I don't know what I felt. I guess those are probably accurate and scared maybe. I know I've always felt like I just have to do it, that's all I'm good for, is pleasing them. Whatever they want I'm supposed to do. Ugh. I feel disgusting and dirty. I feel like a horrible person"
You know I'm not going to tire in the least of telling you that you are worth so much more than that, you're not dirty, you're not disgusting and you're so far from being a horrible person
Of course I also know that hearing it is one thing, believing it can be something completely different. But hey, you know so many of us on here believe it

"It is always different when it is someone else... I'm a fricken hypocrite, you know that Alison"
Yes, but deep down you know that it's not that different, right??

And "I'm trying. I will continue to try"
I know you're trying, I know you've been trying real hard
And real respect to you for that!!! And you have had a lot to deal with, as well as come a long way already. You should be proud of yourself!!!!



Alison