That feeling of shut-down.. it's brutal, and I absolutely relate. I almost think that additional re-traumatizations can end up being worse on the body and mind than the original traumas, and when people talk about being walked into what is ultimately exposure therapy with practitioners, but feeling hesitant about it, I just want to say RUN! Because I happen to mostly doubt whether practitioners are approaching it in a way that not only helps, but that doesn't further injure, such as referenced in the video. That certain things have to be in order for the person first, so that the experience will not be re-traumatizing. I remember my last therapist just willy-nilly asking me heavy-duty questions about my trauma, specifics that I recall perfectly well but have no desire to re-experience. Not even a "how do you feel about talking about this" or "I think examining your trauma in more detail could be valuable if think you're ready", just right in there with the most intimate details of one the most unimaginable things a 4 year old could be made to go through, and that anyone would ever want to chat about in full technicolor detail.

I just think there's a huge difference between horrific experiences simply "needing to be revisited" which is something I hear said all the time, and horrific experiences being revisitable in a healthy way at the right time, which I think resides within a far slimmer region of possibility than many practitioners generally bother to address.

I wish I'd known before. Even a tenth of what I know now could have saved me from the place I instead find myself currently. Which is very shut down.